It's like a once a year thinga-ma-jigg for me :/

Gosh, again, it's like a necessity for me to wait a lifetime before i update my blog again. Kinda trendy huh?

I'm not sure what i should be updating knowing there isn't anyone actually following. Kinda like talking to a wall here. But then again for what reason should i be having followers?

A lot has happened in the period i hadn't been updating: a few break-ups with the same person, haha, the official break-up with the same mentioned person, an acceptance of a few new people in my life (there's Ava Sophea, my baby niece born on the 15th of June, 2010 (or has that already been mentioned?)

and there's Mohd. Rezza Adinata Hutagalung who i met on the 31st (or was it 30th?) of January, 2011 and who is now my official Mr. Loverboy.

But there is a but in this little relationship of ours, quite a number of buts actually. But that's for us to handle on our hour. Fate is in God's hands and i'll accept whatever He has planned out for me.

I can say i've also found myself another friend i can consider close. Dah kenal for quite awhile, tapi rapat agak baru juga, i think it has been about slightly more than a year of us being close - and it started with the below am-mature painting attempts:

What else? I've been travelling last year for work purposes. 5 countries: Thailand, Australia, Japan, Vietnam & Singapore. This year there had been rumours that i'll have to travel to Netherlands, Serbia, France, Italy and other European countries which have yet to be confirmed. It's been all fun and sounds all fun but i really don't think that this training position is for me. I mean yeah it sounds like WOW knowing that i'd get to travel to all these places tapi macam i'm not happy doing what i'm during and i'm still in the verge of searching for what's right.

Coming to my skin pula, it hasn't been treating me all that fair. Dahla asyik breaking-out, kena pulak break-out at all the wrong places - yang paling tak boleh terima is it's been breaking out on my face which put me in a lot of depression for quite a while. Lama pulak tu. Dah on MC for over 2 weeks and still continuing. But i'm trying to be optimistic and just praying that i get better in the near future. Bila dah sehat nanti i might build up the courage to post a picture of my face during the time it was in an aweful state. Like a before and after.

There are a few plans in the pipeline to ensure i maintain my health after, Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku tolongla no more outbreaks. It has got to be gone once and for all.

Make up your mind!

i apologize for being a woman, having mood swings but wanting to have them around you, crying but only wanting to cry around you, being manja but only wanting to be that around you

i apologize for being annoying

i apologize for wanting you

i apologize for having you as the only one i wanna be with

i apologize for being me with you

but then, i also apologize for letting you be a man

i apologize for supporting you

i apologize for being there for you

i apologize for letting you lean on me

i apologize for letting you be comfortable with me and letting you pour out your troubles to me

i apologize for letting you be you

i apologize for laughing with you

i apologize for having makan with you

i apologize for holding your hand and letting you hold mine

i just don't know what's right anymore, i don't what's in your head, do you wanna be with me?

bile takde mood, macam taknak bercakap langsung, at least a good morning, a 'how are you?' but nothing. and when you chose to be under the same roof with me, what's it gonna be like then? we have seperate rooms when you're in a bad mood? what?

i don't understand you, you can't just wanna be with me when you wanna be with me. what happens when i wanna be with you and you're not in the mood? this is just effed up!

2010

2010 To Do List:

1. SIMPAN DUIT!:

• ASB
• Nak Kawin!
• Nak Travel!
• Nak SHOPPING (clothes) bile dah kurus nanti (I'd probably only start shopping when i've went down to 50kg, at least 52kg la...leh?) - oh, shopping untuk kasut, bags, accessories, home decor masih boleh kan :P and Shit, i still need to shop for office attire...damn!

2. KURANGKAN berat badan (yeah, that's been my to do every other year yang tak penah tercapai)

3. Travel more, tak kira lah dalam ke luar negara (Baby, sile2 simpan duit juga yeee)

4. More CONCERTS! More DANCING & JUMPING! (untuk stress release and weight loss, boleh?)

5. Outdoor activities please!

The less important are:

7. Improve work relationships but avoid making friends at work.

hmmmm, there's only 1 less important.

Number 4 dah bermula masa new year hari tu. I danced to Basement Jaxx' DJ-ing for 6hours straight - it was THE best! I'll update my experiences in Singapore when i get back.

Hello Roaming!

Sengal betul tak buat roaming kat phone. And even if i did have it, i wouldn't be able to call him coz he's in Thailand. I miss him like i've never missed him before and the worst thing is i don't even know if i'm still gonna be with him when we're both back in Malaysia. Oh god i HATE this feeling!

Selamat Datang ke Singapore

29.12.2009

1330: Left the house ngan cab.
1415: Reached KLCC to take the Putra to KL Central
1430: Sampai KL Central untuk transit ke LCCT dengan Sky Bus
1530: Tibe ke LCCT - check in - went to Departures and found that i had excess liquids in my back pack (my kepentingans and keperluans - Cetaphil & Sebamed) and cause i didn't want to leave them - terpaksalah naik balik ke check-in untuk check-inkan bag.
1630: Lepak kat Departures - dengar lagu-lagu best dari telefon bimbitku (seriously time to get a new MP3 player - Creative Neon dah lingkup, Ipod Shuffle takleh nak masukkan lagu - absolute frustration) sambil membace:

Courtesy of: news.bbc.co.uk

(yeah yeah yeah - am 26 and baru nak baca buku Harry Potter yang ke-2). Unfortunely flight AK709 was delayed due to some delay from Langkawi and the heavy rain (flight was to be at 1700).
1830: Touch down at the Changi Airport - while queuing up for the passport checking, i saw everyone holding this card. I HAD (sebab takut nak tanya punya pasal la kan) to wait til i was 2nd in line to finally ask the person behind me whether the card was necessary - yeah, he wasn't sure (think he was Japanese or Korean). Not willing to take any chances, i got out of the queue to fill in what you called an Arrival Card. Which apparently (after reading the terms & conditions behind the card) is mandatory to be completed and provided during arrivals in Singapore (and some other countries) - oh on top of that my back pack pun dibasahi hujan while it was being loaded into the plane
1900: Re-united with one of my besties Jaclynn - hugged and took the MRT to Tampines as Jaclynn insisted to get me a pair of new shoes for that night as we were to enter one of the most high class clubs in Singapore: StereoLab.

Jaclynn (insisting to carry my heavy heavy back pack)

Me at the MRT station with 2 handbags (we had to switch)And so my 1st pair of Ballerina flats

After this point, i did not at all track the time.

So we got the shoes and went home in a rush (Pasir Ris) and freshened up a bit, took a cab to Clarke Quay and lepak-ed at this bar called Crazy Elephant - Met Jac's friends: El, Zad, Manfred, Tim & another. Of course i had to be tempted to take a ride on the slingshot, so guess what? :

Before queuing

QueuingBeing fastened

Preparing for lift offUP UP & AWAY!

We then did a little more lepak-ing, then Jac's crazy but really nice friend Zad proposed & INSISTED for us to take a ride on a TRISHAW (YES Beca ye!) to StereoLab (Me & Jac on 1, and Jac's friends Zad & Tim on another - a few others: Manfred & another took a cab - so lucky us. El didn't join as she had to go home and rest - worked the next day) which was i think a 15 - 20mins ride. Jaclynn agak malu nak arrive at the club on a beca so we stopped slightly further up to walk a little. But Zad and Tim made a grand entrance together with a few luxury cars at the main entrance. Funny.

StereoLab

Courtesy of: www.femalemag.com.sg

We danced like for 3 - 4 hours at StereoLab to Pete Tong's DJ-ing. Dah habis, they bawak me to a place they call "back to Malaysia" (KTM ye) - the Hungry ate and the Thirsty drank.

We ended the day and took a cab back to Jac's place and it actually to about 45mins to finally reach home - the roads were clear. I think we were home at about 5am - really tired, Jaclynn memang terlentang terus, i cleaned a bit before tidor.

= My 1st day in Singapore, my 1st time overseas after Scotland.

False Alarm

Ok people-people...buat malu je nie....i didn't end up going to Korea for the training session...it was a net meeting instead :)...still a new experience all the same.

It'll be Astro plak this coming Tuesday.

There's so much i missed to state i do not know where to start...but i don't think i wanna start now...not so good of a mood...some other day i guess.

Good News...i think?

So last week my Manager & Assistant Manager called me up to have a serious "talk". Long story short, they asked me if i was interested in taking up a trainer responsibility (without the title) coz the one responsible currently has applied elsewhere.

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After all the persuasion from them and the demands from me, Alhamdulillah they've approved my demands and i've decided to stay (for now) and i think my first trip would be to Korea. Yayy.

With that done and settled with...kene start pening kepala about the move and the bills i have to settle before moving...