Make up your mind!

i apologize for being a woman, having mood swings but wanting to have them around you, crying but only wanting to cry around you, being manja but only wanting to be that around you

i apologize for being annoying

i apologize for wanting you

i apologize for having you as the only one i wanna be with

i apologize for being me with you

but then, i also apologize for letting you be a man

i apologize for supporting you

i apologize for being there for you

i apologize for letting you lean on me

i apologize for letting you be comfortable with me and letting you pour out your troubles to me

i apologize for letting you be you

i apologize for laughing with you

i apologize for having makan with you

i apologize for holding your hand and letting you hold mine

i just don't know what's right anymore, i don't what's in your head, do you wanna be with me?

bile takde mood, macam taknak bercakap langsung, at least a good morning, a 'how are you?' but nothing. and when you chose to be under the same roof with me, what's it gonna be like then? we have seperate rooms when you're in a bad mood? what?

i don't understand you, you can't just wanna be with me when you wanna be with me. what happens when i wanna be with you and you're not in the mood? this is just effed up!

2010

2010 To Do List:

1. SIMPAN DUIT!:

• ASB
• Nak Kawin!
• Nak Travel!
• Nak SHOPPING (clothes) bile dah kurus nanti (I'd probably only start shopping when i've went down to 50kg, at least 52kg la...leh?) - oh, shopping untuk kasut, bags, accessories, home decor masih boleh kan :P and Shit, i still need to shop for office attire...damn!

2. KURANGKAN berat badan (yeah, that's been my to do every other year yang tak penah tercapai)

3. Travel more, tak kira lah dalam ke luar negara (Baby, sile2 simpan duit juga yeee)

4. More CONCERTS! More DANCING & JUMPING! (untuk stress release and weight loss, boleh?)

5. Outdoor activities please!

The less important are:

7. Improve work relationships but avoid making friends at work.

hmmmm, there's only 1 less important.

Number 4 dah bermula masa new year hari tu. I danced to Basement Jaxx' DJ-ing for 6hours straight - it was THE best! I'll update my experiences in Singapore when i get back.

Hello Roaming!

Sengal betul tak buat roaming kat phone. And even if i did have it, i wouldn't be able to call him coz he's in Thailand. I miss him like i've never missed him before and the worst thing is i don't even know if i'm still gonna be with him when we're both back in Malaysia. Oh god i HATE this feeling!

Selamat Datang ke Singapore

29.12.2009

1330: Left the house ngan cab.
1415: Reached KLCC to take the Putra to KL Central
1430: Sampai KL Central untuk transit ke LCCT dengan Sky Bus
1530: Tibe ke LCCT - check in - went to Departures and found that i had excess liquids in my back pack (my kepentingans and keperluans - Cetaphil & Sebamed) and cause i didn't want to leave them - terpaksalah naik balik ke check-in untuk check-inkan bag.
1630: Lepak kat Departures - dengar lagu-lagu best dari telefon bimbitku (seriously time to get a new MP3 player - Creative Neon dah lingkup, Ipod Shuffle takleh nak masukkan lagu - absolute frustration) sambil membace:

Courtesy of: news.bbc.co.uk

(yeah yeah yeah - am 26 and baru nak baca buku Harry Potter yang ke-2). Unfortunely flight AK709 was delayed due to some delay from Langkawi and the heavy rain (flight was to be at 1700).
1830: Touch down at the Changi Airport - while queuing up for the passport checking, i saw everyone holding this card. I HAD (sebab takut nak tanya punya pasal la kan) to wait til i was 2nd in line to finally ask the person behind me whether the card was necessary - yeah, he wasn't sure (think he was Japanese or Korean). Not willing to take any chances, i got out of the queue to fill in what you called an Arrival Card. Which apparently (after reading the terms & conditions behind the card) is mandatory to be completed and provided during arrivals in Singapore (and some other countries) - oh on top of that my back pack pun dibasahi hujan while it was being loaded into the plane
1900: Re-united with one of my besties Jaclynn - hugged and took the MRT to Tampines as Jaclynn insisted to get me a pair of new shoes for that night as we were to enter one of the most high class clubs in Singapore: StereoLab.

Jaclynn (insisting to carry my heavy heavy back pack)

Me at the MRT station with 2 handbags (we had to switch)And so my 1st pair of Ballerina flats

After this point, i did not at all track the time.

So we got the shoes and went home in a rush (Pasir Ris) and freshened up a bit, took a cab to Clarke Quay and lepak-ed at this bar called Crazy Elephant - Met Jac's friends: El, Zad, Manfred, Tim & another. Of course i had to be tempted to take a ride on the slingshot, so guess what? :

Before queuing

QueuingBeing fastened

Preparing for lift offUP UP & AWAY!

We then did a little more lepak-ing, then Jac's crazy but really nice friend Zad proposed & INSISTED for us to take a ride on a TRISHAW (YES Beca ye!) to StereoLab (Me & Jac on 1, and Jac's friends Zad & Tim on another - a few others: Manfred & another took a cab - so lucky us. El didn't join as she had to go home and rest - worked the next day) which was i think a 15 - 20mins ride. Jaclynn agak malu nak arrive at the club on a beca so we stopped slightly further up to walk a little. But Zad and Tim made a grand entrance together with a few luxury cars at the main entrance. Funny.

StereoLab

Courtesy of: www.femalemag.com.sg

We danced like for 3 - 4 hours at StereoLab to Pete Tong's DJ-ing. Dah habis, they bawak me to a place they call "back to Malaysia" (KTM ye) - the Hungry ate and the Thirsty drank.

We ended the day and took a cab back to Jac's place and it actually to about 45mins to finally reach home - the roads were clear. I think we were home at about 5am - really tired, Jaclynn memang terlentang terus, i cleaned a bit before tidor.

= My 1st day in Singapore, my 1st time overseas after Scotland.

False Alarm

Ok people-people...buat malu je nie....i didn't end up going to Korea for the training session...it was a net meeting instead :)...still a new experience all the same.

It'll be Astro plak this coming Tuesday.

There's so much i missed to state i do not know where to start...but i don't think i wanna start now...not so good of a mood...some other day i guess.

Good News...i think?

So last week my Manager & Assistant Manager called me up to have a serious "talk". Long story short, they asked me if i was interested in taking up a trainer responsibility (without the title) coz the one responsible currently has applied elsewhere.

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After all the persuasion from them and the demands from me, Alhamdulillah they've approved my demands and i've decided to stay (for now) and i think my first trip would be to Korea. Yayy.

With that done and settled with...kene start pening kepala about the move and the bills i have to settle before moving...

Paranoia

Day 1

Big Boss : Hi, how are you?

Me : Fine :s

Big Boss : Where do you stay?

Me : Ampang.

Big Boss : Ampang is big...

Me : Bandar Baru Ampang.

Big Boss : Aaa, no wonder i feel as though i've seen you before..

Me : (muke pelik)

Big Boss : Coz i always hang around Ampang Point, i think that's where i've seen you before...

Me : Mmm...i don't think so. I RARELY go to Ampang Point. RARELY. I think i'm there only once in 4 months or something - only when i know i have to get something from there.

Big Boss : Aaa..then it's definately not Ampang Point. (pause). I was telling VJ how you have such a familiar face. Where did you work before this?

Me : Wisma Selangor Dredging.

Big Boss : I guess i was wrong then :)

Me : Yeah, i guess...maybe she was one of my pelanduk dua serupa people...

Innocent right?

Day 3 (there was no day 2)

Time ni dah malam dah la...some-time between 6.00PM to 8.30PM when there was hardly anyone in the office...

Big Boss : So how are you today?

Me : Fine

Big Boss : How did you come to work?

Me : Bus

Big Boss : You know if some days i work late and you're still here, i don't mind dropping you home.

Me : (i made a crooked face)

Big Boss : Yeah, coz it's on the way...you do remember where i stay don't you?

Me : (another crooked face)...no.

Big Boss : I told you where i stayed the other day, this is so sad.

Me : (urghh), you didn't.

Big Boss : Well, it's obvious you don't think of me, that's why you don't remember.

Me : (Eeewww...getting uncomfortable)...you didn't mention it.

Big Boss : i know you're purposely not remembering right?

Me : No (i wish i just said yes).

Big Boss : I stay at Bukit Antarabangsa.

Me : You didn't tell me.

Big Boss : Ok. I'll test you next time.

Not so innocent anymore...or was it?

I've had experiences with the CEO (that's fine, i don't bump into him often), i don't wanna be experiencing some what with the SM...(we're on the same floor) and it's just gross. I just hope it's nothing.